the attention

You’ve always hated the attention. They’re here again. Your mom tells you to be polite and greet them. They’re distant family, family friends. This is one of those times when the distinction doesn’t really matter. One in particular thinks it’s really funny that you don’t like hugs much and makes sure to give you a big bear hug and a heavy slap on the back. You shrink back as soon as you are able to. Two hours later they’re staring at you again. What now? Oh, this time it’s because ‘You’re so quiet!’ Of course you are, you have nothing … Continue reading the attention

On the Self

Lately I’ve been thinking about the self, about my self. I’ve heard things like, “the self is a construct” out here on the internet and I think I understand it well enough. The self is made up of things like: the choices we make, the values we keep, how we react to things, how we treat other people; and it’s also made up of things like: the kinds of clothes we choose to wear, if and how we use makeup, what our voice sounds like. The self is simply made up. If you don’t like it, change it. That’s good … Continue reading On the Self